I had seen her like this so many nights,
her starry, cerulean eyes hidden by closed lids.
Such a strong life fire, that even in sleep, incites,
a smile across my face by this child, this precious gift.
I've lost something I can't ever replace.
What is this soul without my angel, my Averly?
Every smiling memory seems caught in tears on my face,
always playing silently, until my screams tear the stillness.
I can still feel her crimson soaked dress,
as the sea of red fell down my tear stained arms.
I sat holding her, in a fearful, unknowing distress,
waiting for one breath, one clasp of her tiny fingers around mine.
But that never happened, it wasn't our last memory.
She just opened those cerulean eyes and whispered softly,
"I love you, mommy"
and was pronounced dead at 10:03.
My heart instantly shattered and my soul abandoned me.
She was everything I had, she was how I knew love existed,
and without her, without the smile that set me free,
I could never say goodbye to Averly...
...I could only watch her leave.
Author notes
There is a back story to this poem, but, surprisingly, it may not be what you think. I've never lost a child, I've never even had a child. But since I was young, I couldn't wait to be a mom. A couple of days ago, my husband and I were talking about having a child and found out we may not be able to have one, ever. I know it wasn't even close to the pain that a mother might feel from that loss, but it was a very painful possibility, and ended up inspiring this poem.
I hope you guys like it 
Love,
~*~Zenity
A contest entry
- Lost Love or Friendship by piccola.
450 points, ended August 21, 2008, 37 entries
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Comments
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#1 I'm so relieved to know you haven't lost a child. I have. It was years ago, and we lost an 8 day old baby. Regardless of the age, the pain is unbearable. We did have another child that was 11 months old and we were more closely bonded with him...thank you for sharing this and for the entry
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Beautiful and heartrending and insightful.You captured it all!This stilled my heart to sadness.Good luck in contest
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