Wake up today,
In the usual way,
Insides are churning,
Eyes are burning,
My head ready to explode,
Have to get ready,
To face the day,
I have to go,
But I want to stay,
No energy it seems,
What do I expect?
If only I could linger,
There in my dreams,
Where I woke myself laughing,
And food was abound,
And now it is silent,
Not even a sound,
Caught between reality and denial,
Stand in the shower, hold on to the tile,
I say "I'll be ok, just give me a minute"'
Let the stars go away and the dizziness quit,
One hears no emotion behind all these words,
Just facts and description, it all sounds absurd,
Numbness really is what I am feeling,
In touch with nothing,
As I stare at the ceiling,
Today an opportunity to get things done,
To open and display,
All that I've run from,
If only they'll help me dig deep inside,
To find what I'm desperately trying to hide,
I'm afraid i've shut down,
A familiar distraction,
ED takes me to town,
The laws of attraction,
So now what do I do,
When I don't feel today,
And I have this opportunity,
To do as I may,
Perhaps it a waste,
To even go at all,
For all of them a bad taste,
To deal with such walls.
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wow this is amazing! its soo like how i fell...i love the way you wrote it. and it just flows great! loved it! great job! =]
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thank you so much for your comments on my poem......i'm happy to say that that was written months ago, and prior to some intensive tx....and things are a lot better now and i am doing well for the most part....but still love the fact that i can get support and feedback here........i hope that u can find some healing and feel better........i decided to enter this in your contest. blessings to you and healing prayers.........
sherry
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Wow. this is a great write. You made it sound so much different then what I imagined...
Nicely done
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thanks so much for your feedback.........
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Yes, I know well how food is a replacement for love, and it also numbs the pain - as any addiction is used for. A moving write! I felt a sense of your own empowerment here as well; that you know you have the willpower to make healthy choices. This reflects much consciousness and the willingness of emerge from one's denial. Thank you for sharing this, and best of luck in the contest!
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I really like this one. You have a great talent for writing. I like the way it flows.
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