One Year Ago....

I lay in bed
      tired and restess
    i toss and turn trying to sleep
              as i finally start to slip in to my dreams
    memories fill my thoughtless mind
  memories of a year ago
        the lost
    pain
          and tears
as i try to block the horried things
i notice my cheeks dampen with my tears
          one year ago
              so many livestaken at once
      and why?
two of them its was just time for them to go
    but the others
          so young...
two just out of high school
    i watch them as they walked the stage
          i rose the flag for them
another almost done with medical school
          graduates killed by a storm
    college student by a drunk
                all in one month
      all meaning something
i lay in bed recalling it all
            the pain
                greif
            the nightmares
      i plead for relief to only get more sorrow
            all i ask for is relief
      and all i get is more pain

as i try to fall asleep crying
    all i can see is their faces
            an aunt that watch me grow up into the young adult i am
    a man i thought of as my grandfather
                      i was one of the few he had
          two kids i grew up with
                  one taht read my deepest secrets
      and a mentor, someone i wished i cold be like
  hours pass by as i beg for relief
        from reliving my lose
                    hours that will never end