And still I can remember that drive
The pouring rain, the fear that I wouldn't make it in one piece
It was hard to know what was worse, the pain erupting from inside me
or the storm raging beyond my windscreen.
As my grief was relentlessly pelting my insides
I wanted to be out there, in the darkness,
hair plastered to my face, clothes dripping,
my body mirroring what I felt inside
When the phone called I knew it was time
Please can you come
She said... my sister
I thought of you, and your children
and I didn't cry
For so many years I wanted to tell you
How I hated you
You took her from me
My protector
My sister
For so many nights I cried, years
I never understood why she left
you were stupid, and old, and had no understanding of the pain I felt
inside
That she had left
I was a child, and you didn't know
I was eighteen when I sat down to write you that letter
I needed to tell you
But it was stuck inside of me
It had become a part of the glue that held me together
I couldn't part with it
I stared at the paper
The misery I felt
You would never know
What you had come to mean
It was all tangled up
I could see now with an adults eyes
It's okay,
Just get there
I heard you say in my mind
I stayed amidst them in their grief
For you
I stayed and protected them and held them
For you
Somehow I kept them from breaking apart
As you had done for me
My Brother
My Protector
My Friend
I could not get it out
the words to tell you
the letter I could never write
I'm sorry that it's too late
M.
Author notes
I was seven when my sister left home to get married
and 30 when her husband passed
Hate and love so enmeshed
A contest entry
- The letter that never arrived. by withoutlove13.
450 points, ended August 27, 2008, 20 entries
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wowo.. you left me speachless.. I felt your pain like if it was my own.. great write.. I enjoyed it very much.. it trully shows how much your sister means to you..
I wanted to be out there, in the darkness,
hair plastered to my face, clothes dripping,
my body mirroring what I felt inside
wowo... I love this part so much.....
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wow this was really good.
the first few stanzas really drew me in
it was a very powerful write
this was very very well written
best of luck in the contest
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Powerful beginning with 'And', so the reader is immediately aware of the poem as a continuation of thought.
I loved 'I wanted to be out there in the darkness....my body mirroring what I felt inside'
Great poem, well done!
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Thank you
My first attempt to write something
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As my grief was relentlessly pelting my insides
I wanted to be out there
/\that line just stands out to me, its powerful
thank you for entering and also for sharing a very personal write
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