And maybe you never realized what you put me through
I vigorously try to remind myself of that
The abundant temptations lingered in our eyes
But to you, I was just an inexperienced & oblivious girl;
Extremely easy to be taken advantage of.
Attention from someone like you was an honor, a blessing
To turn you away, to not demand your appearance, was absolutely insane
Though I foolishly let you lead me on
& conjure me with your thought-out excuses and lies
No matter how much I tried to open my eyes to who you really were
My heart always ended up back in your hands.
The late nights [no earlier than 5:30 in the A.M]
& just being close to you [& feeling your fingers intertwined with mine]
Made me feel...important to you.
The next day, you'd just. leave.
As if what happened between us was never real, but a fictional dream.
...it all seemed real to me.
I guess not hearing from you for weeks or months at a time
Slowly ate away at my emotions
& I began to fall apart.
The mind games got intentionally worse
I didn't feel like a priority to you anymore;
I felt hurt & continuously used for your twisted cravings.
[Was it even love?]
I wanted to shove every diminutive flaw back in your face
But I couldn't find the right words, the right time.
Years passed, & we continued the same routine
But then I grew up a little, and realized you really let me down
I was nothing but badly emotionally bruised
And you didn't even care.
So it was done.
Over.
For good.
It'll be two years this October, when I decided to let.you.go.
I never considered you as a regretful memory
You were my first experimental mistake.
♥
A contest entry
- The letter that never arrived. by withoutlove13.
450 points, ended August 27, 2008, 20 entries
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I felt your pain the thru the whole poem.. nice imagery..
Attention from someone like you was an honor, a blessing
To turn you away, to not demand your appearance, was absolutely insane
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Aww this was so deeply emotional & heartfelt.
Your words spoke volumes & so did your feelings.
Beautiful write!
Thanks foe entering & best of luck
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This is actually really good. I didn't care for the extra punctuation where it wasn't needed, but the thoughts were really well written. The last line was a good one.
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this is amazing lovely, i really adore this it is just amazing my butterfly
this is just gorgeous you always outstand me love
all my love
kitty xxxx luffles you!
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oh.my.god.
Mandaliciousss I thought this was about someone else until I got to the very last few lines. Ohmygod hoe, this seriously made me want to cryyy. I absolutely loveee this. So much truth and pain .. yet so beautifully written and look at how far you've come and how much you've learned from everything he put you through.
We both got taken advantage of and ended up hurt and broken but we've come so much farther then they EVER will. It'll be 2 years for me, too, in Sept. We definitely have to celebrate [lol]. They were both mistakes, but hey, we grew up a lot, right?
This was amazinggg and it hit me so hard. Ily hoe stay strong<3333
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awww
i love
very good....
and very nice title -
I vigorously try to remind myself of that
The abundant temptations lingered in our eyes
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i feel like theres an extra word here.. either 'that' or 'the' cause i kinda threw me off :S
No matter how much I tried to open my eyes to who you really were
My heart always ended up back in your hands.
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i LOVE that. it really shows the emotion quite well, adn i can really relate
I never considered you as a regretful memory
You were my first experimental mistake.
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I LOVE THE ENDING!!!
its beautiful
best of luck in the contest <3 -
oh my goodness, I really liked this!
you did very well with your vocab.
I know exactly what its like to have your heart gutted, I feel your pain.
great write,thank you for entering =]
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