[ Im in love...how els can I put it....im in love with a girl that doesnt even know! I cant tell I c

Im in love...how els can I put it....im in love with a girl that doesnt even know! I cant tell I cant even see her...and she is not even interested in me...we just spent a year together in the same appartment living and dating each other and then she came to me one day and asked are you in love with me...I said no...dumb ass I know you can say it I ruined the best thing and all I want is to have it back but I cant and not cause I wont but b/c she is so hurting b/c of my actions that why would she even want to see me...besides I just want her to have her child back so that way she will have what she truly wants back in life...not me

and besides i deserve to lose her after what i did....braking a woman's heart...I deserve to be alone and that is why I have turned down these girls and parties...im grieving but yet the more sad i get the more the girls talk to me the more I walk away the more they follow. I just want two girls back in my life they know who they are....but they'll never truly know how I feel...T.C. D.C. 4 LIFE.

So to anyone that is wondering why im bitchin...just cause I am all tripped over one girl...but damn........one hell of a girl!!!!!!!!!!


Some people say that life teaches you lessons everyday...well the lesson learned from this experience is that even when you give yoursefl to somebody completely and do the same in return, it never works.

I have lost my only one true love cause of things that i did...i just want that person to know that I am so sorry for cheating on her....i will always regret what i have done, how i ruined and used her...casued her a pain that i can not even take away and carry for her.. if love ever does give me another chance....I wont make the same mistakes again with her.

I cant go back into the past and just let her use the phone, or go back alittle further and tell that girl no i cant im i love with her...please stop touching me stop telling me she doesnt have to know.
Im a fool a horrible person and now i have to live day in and day out without the girl (s) of my dreams...fuck

So now im alone living life without her...without them both, b/c no matter what anyone says I lost just as much as my significant other, i have lost both of them not just one or the other....5 years is a long time but i feel that when you truly love someone that you can wait. im not saying that i will cause i know that she wont, i know that she will alwasy blame me for what happend.

i am guilty...but not for what they have said but for cheating and thats it!

I will be continually fightiing to prove my innosence for the rest of my life there is more to the story than just "I know he did it, cause I didnt"
One day hopefully she will have her back...thats all i want for her is to have her child back no matter what that means.

So i am leaving, nomore games even though there never was any! I just wanted her to show me that there was a chance for forever, I never fell out of love with her I was just high when I said that to her that day in the bathroom...but she'll never believe me!

Please to the person i know is reading this...I love you and her always. I will never be able to move on, I miss you always and forever.