A Good Man

It's hard to sit here in silence knowing what has been done...knowing the things I want to do and what I should do are as far apart as the sun.
It's hard to leave you behind and it's hard to move on...so hard to forget the memories and agree that they are gone.
I know we've both hurt each other and that's something we can't undo...but I'll take the first step, do you forgive me, I forgive you.
It seems so crazy and far away the love that we once shared...but it's so near to me when I close my eyes like you are right there.
Even though I've had such a painful, hurtful year...the happiness you bring me is so foreign to me cuz you are never here.
The thoughts I have of that one day keep my sadness at bay...I've never been so comfortable and you always knew what to say.
The sunshine on your face and the way you pulled me near...felt so right, makes me smile as if somehow your still here.
I felt as if I'd always been yours and I could tell you felt the same way...it's like you said, I knew you were the one within minutes the first day.
I don't know why I'm writing this and I'm sure it's a shock to you...but it seems I can't forget you no matter what I do.
Your such an amazing person and you should know, it's true...I've never wanted anything they way that I've wanted you.
I don't know how to get close to anyone and I don't know why...it seems I push everyone away no matter how hard I try.
One day I hope I can open up and let my heart breathe...until I feel I'll be alone and everyone will leave.
I think about you so much and I think deep down I wait...I pray that your heart shows you the way back before it is too late.
Your such a good person I hope you know and you need to believe...I'll always cherish our memories I'll never let them leave.
It's hard for me to write all this, it's so hard for me to say...I'd always be there for you if you came back around this way.
She better treat you right, good men are far and few...I met one once, it was worth the pain...
That good man was you.