it was more than just what I had been taught
I believed in my heart the greatest gift
I could give the man I married
was a pure heart and body
I had no trouble with these thoughts
till a certain someone came along
you confused my mind and mixed my thoughts
I wanted to say yes
but I always said no
I figured if we married one day
our gift to each other would mean so much more
you never pushed me or tried to trick me
yet I knew how much you wanted
to feel my skin next to yours
two young people so in love
I do not regret that we waited
my love for you only grew
and on it lives still today
the only love I never forgot
Author notes
I won't say I never regretted saying no, but it was many years before I did. and only after being raped twice so I never got to see my dream come true. Then I though that if I hadn't said no my first time would have been so different. But honestly I don't regret it to this day, and we have a second chance.......we'll see how this turns out, but I don't think we would be having this second chance if we had gave in back then. I know my heart.
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A contest entry
- The First Time... by trista.
700 points, ended September 7, 2008, 20 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Comments
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Hi there,
I sense the bittersweet experience this must have been for you...yet from the author note, I'm also hoping it was worth it to wait. I've seen some "second chances" that worked out quite beautifully...as I hope yours does. It sounds like you've been through a lot and definitely deserve happiness.
Thanks so much for sharing your experiences and views in the contest with such a lovely poem, and good luck.
Best wishes,
~J.
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this was 30 years of waiting as I am now 47. It is interesting to see what has changed is each of us and the things that haven't. But knowing that our relationship has always been pure, and not built around lust and sex, is still a wonderful gift
Thank you
Rhonda
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