A Lovely Suicide Note....

Dear friends and family
My gathered peers
Please with patience and care read these, my last words

I asked to be viewed as yet another
Yet I was always thrust to the front and told to be different
I was told to "break the mold"

So easy to say
No one quite understands the consequences though
Because when you break the mold you either become great or a monstrosity

I look myself in the eye everday
Not out of conceit as some may think
I do it to give myself a mental evaluation everyday

And today I didn't pass
My test was simple
All I had to do was look myself in the eye and say I can last one more day

I simply couldn't do it
As I stared myself down I saw one thing
A single tear,
A single tear that broke down my whole mental wall

And as I stared at myself this tear multiplied
What once was one now became many
My single thread that connected me to sanity and reason is cut

As my mind leaves this world, I wonder
I wonder the same questions everyone else wonders
"Why me?"
"Why now?"

I fall to the ground as tears stream from my face to the floor
Slowly changing from the crystaline hue they once were to a crimson tint
They change as such simply because I have no tears
I'm running out of tears so I shall replace my tears with my blood

All I can think is where are my friends?
My friends are no where to be found

My friends who care have people they care more about
Their significant others to keep them happy after I'm gone

My other friends are somewhere else
I honestly have no idea where they are and I don't know what they are doing

All I really want to say is you know who you were to me and I'm sorry if this hurts

But today I must say my goodbyes
To you all I say farewell
And at my ceremony I would like each of you to say something
Please be honest and say what you feel

You know who you are when I say thank you for the few good memories here

good bye