One True Regret

Sixteen at last
School was half way through
But I find myself at a new school once again
And how to make friends where to being

I think about football that's good
Then I meet all the guys
The wonder where do I stand
Am I cool enough or just fan

The challenge how to fit in
Then I think I can get a girl
Thoughts of love and joy I never had
Come surging through my mind

But how do I begin
Women scare me so much
Then it hits me I'd rather die then talk
But there's no room for shy
So what on earth to do
What clothes should I buy

It was all so nice
As I took the chance and rolled the dice
She was a cheerleader and I a football player
It was a match made in heaven or so they say

Everything was fine
I was getting closer to the thing I wanted
The moment when trumpets would sound
And I'd find myself in complete bliss
Within her warming embrace

I tried so hard to find my way
To so the guys I was one of them
And then the night came for a party
We won the championship
I had the last second sack to save the game

I was on top of the world nobody could touch me
Then came a night to remember
Drinks flowed from the taps
Everything became blurry

I decided to take her to the room
And in that moment I was no longer a virgin
The guys clapped me on the back
The girls talked and comforted her

Then I saw the look on her face
We had both lost the most important thing we had
We had both lost ourselves
But I was on top every guys friend

Finally I fitted in
Then it hit me as we slowly fell apart
This on moment of bliss was the end
We both played our part but was it right

To this day I wonder if I was right
In the time that came afterwards
I learned some very important lessons
Not only are you no longer a child
You've given a part of your soul

People can say its not true but I've never forgotten
I look of shame on her face and the tears flowing from her eyes
I have lived my life with no regrets except one
I wish I knew the effects before the deed was done

Now I live with her a part of me and me of her
The dreams that haunt me will never go
The bliss I will never forget
The timing however
Well that's a different story

I don't deny what has happened
I wish I knew what I know now
I wish I knew I'd give her a piece of me
And take a piece of her

I wish I knew about safety and protection
To this day my only regret was not making sure I ready
To allow the crowds to force me
And the understanding that I was so small

After High school none of those people mattered to me
And I never saw them again
So why their opinions  meant so much to me I'll never know
But I do know I live with one true regret