Things were just fine
lying in bed, lying to myself.
Telling myself that I could.
I forced myself to try this out,
be in this relationship,
that I never really wanted.
You see my dear,
I was in love
and I had been all along,
but the thing you never knew
is that it was someone else
and I missed him terribly.
I was with you darling,
because I needed that touch.
The reassurance that I was wanted
and you needing me, made me special.
something desired and attained.
and I could forget that love for a moment.
Snuggled on that old mattress
my cheeks still red with lust
Imagining myself in the arms of another
wishing desperately that it was true
Then I heard your voice
telling me, first, not to be afraid
Of course, anxiety set in
and I wondered what it could be
you pulled my head onto your chest
and whispered into my ear...
I.... love.... you....
the pain shooting through my body
A moment of complete bliss
still coming down from that orgasmic high
only to be cut short
by that DAMN word
You can't love me....
It's only been a few days...
You reassured me that I could be silent
I did not have to respond...
and I couldn't. Even if I wanted to.
I just curled up in your arms...
and saw his face in my mind
whispering those words to me
He said it the same way, you know,
The same intonation, whispering gently
holding me close in his arms...
a night of innocence...
not this promiscuous thing
that has started between us
So Why'd You Have To Say That 'L' Word?
I don't think I could ever love you...
but tonight... I will lie here
fulfilling physical needs... and later
when I am all alone...
I'll cry... wishing he was the one... to say that 'L' Word....
Author notes
The picture for this poem is of me and the guy that I was with at the time... who spoke that forbidden L word....
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I love this piece!
I know a bunch of my friends, as well as myself included that has felt like this. Trying to replacce love with lust, and then it all back fires. Why are the gys that we want to be saps, just aren't, and those that we just use to get those feelings we crave & need to survive & feel confident (unless you're one of those girls born with a perfect everything and you know it, in that case more power to yah I wish I had your confidence) fall in love with us desperatly? It's just not fair!
I love how you expressed your emotions so well.
-Brea
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OMG!! I truely enjoyed reading this! What woman hasn't been in this very situation at one time or another in their life? An excellant write in my opinion!
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I WANT TO SEE THIS WHEN IT'S DONE!!
Sorry for the shouting, I just really do want to see the end of this....
I'll beg, pout, or annoy your best friend if I have to. -
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I am working on it... i swear...
i just need some more inspiration... -
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Working on it!
Called all the muses in my little black book, I'm sure SOMEONE will call. If not, I'll see what I can scrounge up in the attic. Good luck!
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You can only try to convince yourself a certain amount of times before you know it'll never work. So well wrote & expressive!
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this is really well written
i really like the last 2 lines
good job and goodluck in the contest. -
Humm..I can see that you are writing your sentiments with the pen of your desires..and touching the surface of the flowing water of a heartfelt relationship ...wonderful indeed...
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