& to think, I always cared what you thought
what a waste of a precious energy I could've spent, counting out dimes
or chasing rainbows down at the riverbank.
See, I always believed in you;
why would you need to lie to me, I gave you everything & more
so my hope was you'd give me everything back in return.
If I ever lied to you it was to protect you--
if I ever shouted, it was because I couldn't have you.
& he tells you some stuff I did do, but couldn't say
as it would involve telling you that I'd be raped
& maybe you'd blame me, wouldn't be the first time someone had.
& I said no but you seemed not convinced, said 'around these times'
telling others about us wouldn't be a good idea.
|excuse.after.fucking.excuse|
You're the one who decides to believe in his words,
so it's not 'these times' it's 'your times' and you said love was enough,
well fuck that, love is snuff in my mind's eye right now.
& when I told you about Ryan you said you couldn't fucking believe it
but when my ex and his friends tell you, it's suddenly confirmed
as if they fucking knew him better than I did, as if you didn't fucking know me--
infact, that's enough for me to want to severe all fucking ties with you,
sometimes you really fucking anger me.
& whenever you tell me something, I wont believe you--
you wont believe my truths, so I wont believe your halftruths,
whatever the hell comes out of your mouth is bullshit,
you love me--prove it.
If not--get out of my life, I've had it.
I'd rather be alone than bleeding into someone elses arms,
who wont shed a drop for me.
I can't be [fucked] to deal with this
& I can't believe you'd play these games
.CraigSaidIFuckWithPeoplesMinds?.
Take a look inside baby, the reflections defined.
& the nerve for me to not be able to text when want to
as one of those guys will answer your phone;;
I can't be asked with what you do anymore, not worth it
I wont let you play those games [-+-had them played before-+-]
Fuck you & your fake i♥you's.
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A contest entry
- Are you up for a challenge? by innocence jaded.xx.
4200 points, ended September 8, 2008, 72 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
~♥~
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Whoa, love, this was incredible ! I honestly loved every word. They were so endeauring & utterly mind-blowing.
-You're the one who decides to believe in his words,
so it's not 'these times' it's 'your times' and you said love was enough,
well fuck that, love is snuff in my mind's eye right now.
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I give you kudos for those lines ! haha, I wish I could say that someone[s] I know. Very well penned. & of course:
-Fuck you & your fake i♥you's.
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Perrrfect. Woot :] Thanks for entering & good luck ! ♥ -
great great great! thanks for entering and good luck
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DAMN!!!!!, i mean wow, this is some strong stuff, all i can say, keep it flowing, keep it flowing
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Is this about steven sweetie?
Has he been messing you about again? :|
Tell him to go and drop down a well if he has.
Stupidboy.
loves you though sweetie, keep your head up
♥
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Way to go sweetie ~ vent all of it out and let him know the truth to how you feel ~ excellent release of emotional distress !!!!!
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