Insanity

I found myself standing taller-
Still in the same exact body,
Weak, pumping blood,
Now running viciously through
Thoughts scream insanity
My mouth is too dry to utter one small sound.

I can hear the sarcasm pour thick,
The comments spread through hands
Sweat from stress washes it away,
Each comment, each remark,
Each word is sliding down my fingers now.

I found myself standing across from the other side
There are no chains
There are no voices
My head is cleaner
I want to push ahead
Watch the people I knew teeter
Falling on my other side.

Why is my smile different?
When is this new breath going to taste bitter?
Thoughts scream insanity
My mouth is too wide with pleasure
A smile too much to even want to shout
I want this to mean I've found something different,
Something new.