hurting with out you

Hurting bad, muscles ache, does it look like I shake? watch me now incase I fall, hold me if I get to cold, hold me when I cry, yet I know you'll be gone in the blink of an eye. I am still waiting... patiently looking around just to see if your coming for my rescue once again, you have came around before, yet u have just failed again crushing my heart, you were my knight in shining armor, but that was so much more then you thought. I am still trying to understand why u have done that to me. though now I know you don't love me back I will still love you yet I will try not to remember all the pain you put me through today and for the rest of my life. Why couldn't we have tried? Whats wrong with just trying? I have so many things that are needed to be said but afraid to hurt you to possably hurt me even more. I see it'll take time to gain back the strengh maybe my hole life. I am never going to forget the things you have said to me and the things I have said to you. I pitty myself from today on. if your sorry you wouldnt have done that in the first place. Just remember you crushed my Heart you crushed it into the ground it shattered. its gone. soo thanks for everything you are going to put me through... just to mend myself together again.