Listen, NOT Hear

Listen, not Hear

By: Amber Deschamps

I want you to listen to me
but then again I don't
Because when I do                                                                                                                                                                    it's not like I'm speaking
It's more like I'm tearing the words right out of my throat
And I know, I know that sounds really mean
but believe me I don't want to cause a big scene
But these words burn like embers inside of my veins
they flow to the page
but not from my brain

They come from my soul
like I said from the start
When I gave you my friendship
and trusted my heart

See I want you listen
if only for a minute
Because there are people here with futures
and they want you in it!

And I know you think I'm lying
And I know you think I'm wrong
But every day I see you dying
and it isn't like a song
Because this real
and there isn't some magic
to come and to heal

See this is my appeal:

I want you to listen and not just to hear
As the words come from my mouth
and straight to your ear
And I want  you to listen
more than words can say
Because life without you
WOULDN'T be a true day

And I know, yes I know
that I too have done you wrong
and my words play in my head over and over
just like a song
and it won't go away
But please
just listen when I say
That life without you
Just WOULDN'T be a day

And I want you to listen
and not just to hear
So the words will stay with you
so close and so near

And I know you don't believe me
when the words come pouring out
You've been beaten,
You've been broken
by the skinny and the stout
They tell you you're not worth it
and you believe as you let  tears fall

But you're not listening,
you're not hearing
The one Man who sees it all.

See He's screaming out your name
through the pain and devstation
Fighting demons
Fighting people
and even fighting SATAN

And I know you don't believe
and you think it isn't true

But a day is not a day
Without the presence that is you

And maybe I don't know how you've suffered
and you don't see how I can
But DAMMIT wont you just LISTEN
BECAUSE YOU ARE STILL A MAN

Through the tears
and through the pain
and through the selfish ridicule
other poke and others prode
until you're on some vestibule
Far from the masses
and far from the crowds
you sweat and you cry
when you think no one's around

And I don't know why you listen
and I don’t know why you care
You keep them secret, keep them silent
hoping just to clear the air

And then you bend
and then you break
and you get online and shout
And  I'm trying  hard to help you
but all you do is push me out

And I can't take it, I can't take it
I'm not so strong at all
You're words cut me like glass
And I stumble,
and I fall

But I still wish that you would listen,
and I PRAY TO GOD you don't just hear

That the god who lifts me up again
He's Patient, and kind
and  He’s MY BEST FRIEND
And what He wants more than all the world
More than diamond
more than silver
more than glass or gold or pearl
Is to draw you near
and put you in his lap
let YOU curl up
for a much needed nap
Wipe the tears from YOUR eyes
as HE sees them fall
Because, James, our God, He really does sees it all

And I just wish you would listen
and not just hear

That God WANTS YOU BACK
and HE WANTS  TO DRAW YOU NEAR

He doesn't care about the lies
or the pain or the  all the fear

He just wants you to listen
and to see more than to hear
That he loves you, Yes,
HE LOVES You
WAY MORE than words can say

And for Him, just like me
A day without you wouldn't be a good day.