I lay there in my bed
listening to the song
over and over again
that i dedicated to him
Knowing that he's dead
Another lost
Another tragedy
Anthers' blood over mine
I cry
I promised myself i wouldn't
I wreck my room in torment
Breaking the glass and windows
As i hear the screams of my family
telling me to stop
Trying to hold me back
Throwing them against the wall
like their nothing
but dolls...
Tearing the sheets and covers apart
as they lay on my bed shredded
Curtains falling down
as i suffocate my blood into them
Tipping my dresser over
Clothes falling on the floor
Then there i see the knives
I stop and stare at them in silence
as my mom looks at me
She knows what i want
She runs towards me...
as i try to reached down and grab them
I take it and stare
holding it against my throat
My mom tackles me down onto the harden floor
that is know cluttered and cloaked with stuff
she holds me
and ask me
Jessica what were you thinking?
What the fuck is wrong with you?
All i hear is silence over powering me
But her lips moving furiously and sadden at the same time
But I'm blank without a care
Wanting to say nothing
Pushing her off
I walk out the door slowly
Everyone stares
Walking out into the woods onto the highway
I hear the sirens
of the police cars
coming after me
There i stand over the bridge...
Looking down in despite and laughing
screeching cars approach me
Police officers on the microphones
saying things
But i don't listen
I clime up
and look into the night
gazing at the stars and moon one last time
and fall off.
No thoughts
No sounds
Just silence.....
I think..I'm gonna take a long walk tonight
Honorable mention
Bronze trophy winner
Adding your comment:
So I love you for this. Some days are hell eh?
its takes you on a journey in a brain in such a smooth way. lovely dark all around and the last line about the walk really finished it perfect. 
but our bunnies are tired and have eaten too many shoes already i think 
