,but i guess if it did
we would not have a job to do,
every heart wrenching day and night.
i sleep next to the phone
,just in case, he might get a chance,
a few minutes of peace to call me
.i see him when i close my eyes,
i hear him when there's not a sound,
its driving me crazy
,without him here besides me
.some days i feel like screaming
,and hitting my head up against the wall
.some days i curl up into a ball,
and cry my eyes out for him
.i hope, he hurries up,
and comes home, once again, to me.
this long distance relationship
i cant take it much longer
,waiting to get a letter
postmarked three weeks earlier,
knowing that three weeks ago
he was still alive,
not knowing if he still is
.i cant watch the news these days,
i have to turn it off,
i cant seem to be able to listen
.oh my goodness! the phones
ringing! I'm disappointed when i pick it up,
and its not him on the other side ,
but i hear his voice now telling me
:"its okay beautiful, I'm still here."
i tell him all the things
,i dream we do together
, knowing its driving him
,as crazy
as it is me. i tell him what i want to do,
and he tells me..
..and i get excited, but I'm a down ass chick,
i wont do anything
about the craziness i feel,
the longing to be held close
,the longing for company
in a way only he can.
i
dream about all the things we did,
and all the things we can do
when he comes home.
but for 13 more months
i will be faithful to him,
my lucky charm
,my nerd
,my best friend,
my lover
,my boyfriend
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