Lights Out

You are a sweet addiction
You are my wife
my lover
a bitch
and a whore

You love me
you fight me
you heal me
and hurt me

and if only to dwell
for but a moment
your promise arises
to take away the pain
like a bullet
to the brain

You were always so soft
so gentle and sweet
But when you struck out
you were sharp
you stung and bit
and it hurt
it hurt
so good

I can never leave you
the day you find me
and whisper sweet
nothings
unto my conflicted visage
we will rejoin
in our condemned
bitter-sweet love

I can never outrun
every runner on your side
I can only hide
and pray
that none find
my true nature

You know me
truly know me
and the deepest
sickest of human nature
that I hold closely
afraid that one might see

I love you
I want you
I might even need you
and what do I have
to keep me safe
but to hide and remember
you own me
you will always
have me

take me
leave me
kill me
but please dont
abandon me