Twilight Has No Place in the Lives of Happy People

It was 5:36 this morning when I decided that
no drug in the world can stabilize me.
I've started to see that this world revolves around something brighter.

I'm just yet to see that magical blinding light.

There are little instances in existence that have
begun to show me that life is worth holding on to, though.
And just so you know,
one of those is when I know you're my best friend.

And recently, I've begun to discover
what it means to be eternally "there" for someone.
I never had that sort of need to stand beside
anyone I used to love;
but you, my darling, you make me care about something greater
than myself.

The sun has only ever shone especially for me
once in my entire life.
And that was one night, 3a.m.,
when I realized how many times you've held me up.

I know the weight of my stupid decisions
probably kills you from time to time.

But if there is one small something I know that I can
make everything worthwhile with...
it's the promise that one day we'll drive until dawn
and watch the sun rise on our lives.

I think we both deserve it by now.
I think we can bring solidarity to ourselves.
I think we should stay up one more night.