3 moments of lust

I thought you were different
someone i could trust
but you traded a lifetime of happiness
for 3 moments of lust.
You never thought about me
just left me in the dust.
Like iron in the rain;
left to rot and rust

When i couldn't have you
I picked up a blade of stainless steel;
crying, digging deeper;
hoping this pain will heal
Memories haunted me
Some i didn't want to tell you
so i carved "sorry mom" and bled it out
watching my skin turn blue

Then one day i sat near you
you put your hand on my leg
i flinched,
and you knew.
I was ashamed, as were you.
And i couldn't even look at you.
I ran away like a little kid;
you caught me and held me tight so i'd stop hitting you;
screaming "why cant you just let me go?!"
I broke down and you turned around
Your back facing me;
like you were done with everything;
you were through with me.
And just when i thought my life with you was over
You turned back again and said "evalina, i cant let you go because I love you"

At that moment I thought you were the only thing in my life
I had to look forward to
So i swore i wouldn't do it again;
i made that promise to you
Sooner than i knew, they took me away again
From you; my lover, my brother, my best friend
Hall-Brooke again!
don't be my second home.
In there i cant sleep cause its way too cold
They cant give us many sheets
And im not allowed to call you on the phone
So i dont eat because Im depressed
and when i finally call, i hear you are stressed.

Little did i know,
there was more to you
You slept with 3 different people
And im supposed to be convinced somehow you love me

At first I blamed myself
You used sex as a relief from your stress
but the promiscuity is something I will never forget
but in the end you dont have me anymore
And believe me, this is something you'll regret
I was willing to wait for me
As if i thought I'd never put down a knife

Damn it, i loved you!
I thought u were different!
someone i could trust!
but you traded a lifetime of happiness
for 3 moments of lust!