Out Come The Secrets, In Comes What Came

well, what can I say?
I don't really think I'm gay
I mean Bi Curious of course, I'm open of such
but other than that, not very much.
Ex-Suicidal, yes its true
but to my closest friends its nothing new
no Abuse Id think, but at one time, I guess
I was raped by my friend, but she was only obsessed.
Crushed? I'm a bull on heat, rather an issue once you find love
I'm not into weird obsessions or anything, yet my heads in the clouds above
but oh, so much still to say
so much really every day
where to begin? its like a riddle, logic runs like a fiddle
regrets more like, its all the demand
but still this guilt I can unhand
first if all to start this story
I don't think it would be right to go too gory
lets see number one?
how about I tell all that I almost had a son
at 15? gosh what an awful little lout!
but still one doesn't understand it and just with doubt
you know the worst bit? the awful Tragedy?
a month before I express my inner feelings towards the girl who loves me
just human nature I guess, I'm full of regret
but still I have justification to be met
see when such a poor soul is maddened with loneliness
many require unwanted demands
first she wanted love, forced in it by the knife to her wrist
then one more better, a child, a crib midget, it was quite a risk
but enough, lets go to secret number two
oh something else quite new
I'm living one lie, two lies you see
its so unwanted, by a requirement and key
excitement made it, excitement lost it
now I'm as guilty as a filthy old git
last of all although too unsteady
its quite not right and very unready
yes, last of all deals with herpes
my on heat attitude is what made the unease
luckily Im clean and fully healthy
but who would really want to believe me?
Out came my secrets, in which now came...