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Irrationality

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Shit! What’s shit!

Being told to pull yourself
together … that’s SHIT

when inside yourself
you’re falling apart
mentally, physically,
all the way round.

Every waking moment
doubt, self doubt
doubt about your ability to
just be, to exist …

the ones telling you


do THEY know what it’s like
to hurt, to want the pain to stop?

that would be nice…

no pain, no feelings
nothing …

to listen or not to listen?
to care or not to care?

maybe when someone knows the answer

THEY will tell me,

please ...

 

 

please

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Option 5b/c, bi-polar/depression

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  • Freed by Mercy silver member
    August 2, 2008

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    Yeah. Real. Very real. Can feel those painful words "pull yourself together". Then, on top of it, you blame yourself for not being able to tie yourself in a neat package with a bow.

    Great write.


  • Sorath
    August 2, 2008

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    Thanks for the entry! I liked the disjointed sentences, it made me get the motion of thoughts speeding through the head on a regular basis.
    Every waking moment
    doubt, self doubt
    doubt about your ability to
    just be, to exist …
    I thought that was your best verse because it spoke to me so much! Thanks for the entry & good luck!


  • Bosiarbooger gold member
    July 30, 2008

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    Perfect

    I love when I can relate to someones writing and everyone can relate to this. And I do have the answer I just forgot where I put it. So much pressure! Thanks for sharing, Boog


  • Pete Greenslade gold member
    July 30, 2008
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    we all fall to pieces inside dear..its shit when it happens,,well done xx


  • arafura gold member
    July 28, 2008

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    "do THEY know what it’s like
    to hurt, to want the pain to stop?
    that would be nice…"

    Hang in there my friend. I know how you feel.


  • XxXEmoRainDropsXxX
    July 28, 2008

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    goodness!!! i certainly know how that feels!! the first part of the poem was amazing!!! the shit part (lolz) was really great. i loved this piece!! great job!!!


  • dory
    July 28, 2008

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    wow, this is really relatable and so true in so many ways!

    I love the parts:
    "Every waking moment
    doubt, self doubt
    doubt about your ability to
    just be, to exist …

    the ones telling you

    do THEY know what it’s like
    to hurt, to want the pain to stop?"

    that is really great writing! and really touching,


  • Gwenevere
    July 28, 2008

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    When you are lying in the bottom of a deep dark pit, words like pull yourself together do not help at all.People say things like that because they have no idea how to deal with the situation and they should not want to.There are times when you have to be left to some quiet time to resolve the issues inside your head, whilst knowing that those that care are waiting in the wings to support you.You have many such friends and I hope that soon you will be able to take comfort in that , Ros


  • PerVirtuous
    July 28, 2008

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    This is a wonderful description of depression. It is a conflict between the ego self and the subconscious. There is an answer, and it is a great one. I will send it to you by IM.

    Have three bunnies for a powerful write.


  • Nienna Calmcacil
    July 28, 2008

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    Wow. The first lines shocked me at first....haha....
    But otherwise, this was quite thought-provoking. And, I relate to it...so, nice job ^_^


  • Shadow Lynx
    July 28, 2008

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    Silent cries are the hardest of all to hear ,this write is so full of them and yet u make us hear them , well done


  • Wolf Mancini
    July 28, 2008

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    eeks!

    I read this already...I hope I don't screw you out of points...I f I do please let me know.

    wonderful poem...

    xo
    wolf

  • SueRee
    July 28, 2008

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    Sobbing

    This is such a strong Write, it should have some way of showing the tears dripping from the words. You write "please.....please..." as if it is a whisper, as well as the silent scream of " no pain, no feelings -- nothing".
    Even when you feel locked in this dark corner of a personal Hell, know that you are not alone or unnoticed when you toss out such vivid verse as a lifeline. Those of us who read your pain take a piece of it with us so your road will be lighter.


  • nevadapoet
    July 28, 2008

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    Bravo

    Excellent write...I often find myself feeling the same way...I pray for peace and when I do...I usually find some.
    Nevadapoet


  • rollingzen
    July 28, 2008
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    'the road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom' william blake


  • Wolf Mancini
    July 28, 2008
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    Like this...

    You are releasing with your heart...a vent in the earth...the human soul though much more powerful.
    Beautifully written...strong and real.

    I hope you find the answer my friend...


    xo
    wolf


  • cricketjeff gold member
    July 28, 2008

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    Ohhh pull yourself together !!!!

    I know you know I am joking or I wouldn't dare to say that, to know something of your pain and torment over the last few days has been very difficult, if anyone ever finds a answer to how I can help, I hope they will tell me.


  • ogene
    July 28, 2008

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    "do they know what its like to want the pain to stop?"
    God knows I know what that feels like...we all do.
    Depression is the worst thing that can happen to anyone.
    Well written Sue...Well written.
    OGENE


  • toomysterious
    July 28, 2008

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    Very well written, excellent thoughts expressed well. Thank God or whatever the powers that be are, for poetry, sometimes it is our only salvation.


  • malmadre gold member
    July 28, 2008

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    Life is hard and bleak for people who cant seem to find a small thing to be proud of, we all have doubts, and if there is physical pain along with it, sometimes there are no words of comfort that help. Our angst is part of why we write poetry, I tend to dwell in my disasters. You expressed yourself well is all I can say. Peace to you!


  • breedluv gold member
    July 28, 2008

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    Truth is, those who never suffer from it will never understand it. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for sharing this with us, Sue.


  • ShannonLea
    July 28, 2008

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    It would be shit, being told how to handle something by someone with NO IDEA what you're going through. Unfortunately, sometimes they're the only ones you have to listen to.
    Thanks for sharing
    ~cheers


  • Wandering Woodchuck silver member
    July 28, 2008

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    This is a powerful poem. People who have not suffered depression do not have any idea what it is like. Real clinical depression is not made better by a few stoic words.


  • Thomas Scott gold member
    July 28, 2008
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    speechless


  • Ceridwens Soul silver member
    July 28, 2008

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    My dearest Sister, if I ever find the answer to this shit we both go through you will be the first to know

    Love ya

    Jem xxx

  • Ceridwens Soul silver member
    July 28, 2008
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    OH hell fire this hurts too much

  • Bad Bill
    July 28, 2008

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    This is a really powerful and truthful portrayal of depression. I've been there myself and people just don't understand unless they've been through it themselves, do they?

    Regards,
    Bill

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