Nothing to look forward to but another lonely year at home
Theres no one to fall back on, no one here for me
I dont go anywhere, dont do anything
Im stuck in this house like a prison cell
How can one person be so sheltered?
Boredom taken to a new extreme
Afraid to live my life, of the unknown future
I waste away in bed everyday
Feel my senses fail as I sit in front of this cold computer screen
Daily pattern of tears and self hate
I just want to cut
Cutting the loneliness, pain, and boredom away
Tired of this numbness
It hurts to know that youre on your own
Am I too far gone now, pushed over the edge and to the point of no return?
I pray for some motivation each night
All I want is to be satisfied with this pathetic excuse for a life
Is it possible to feel better?
The most important question is…when will I get an answer?
Author notes
just an update (9-04) i do go places now with my boyfriend
still i have the urges to cut, and still waste away in front of the computer lol
A contest entry
- Life by Kal-El.
650 points, ended August 26, 2008, 56 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Open up and give me emotion by Velvet Rose Petals.
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yup this is me....
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wonderful poem. I can relate- I'm bored all the time, with no one to hang out with, and I cut a lot. But we've always got AP ^^ anyways, awesome poem, full of deep and strong emotions.
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thank you, wow ur just like me...and yea true..ap is all i got.
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Oh my goodness
I so dont understand how the young people of today can be so bored. So many things to do and places to go friends to meet . I myself when I was growing up had so many things I did .I had hobbies making things I would sell to my friends I would take pictures of the sunsets and sunrises and send them off to magazines to see if they would put them in there.Oh lets get together and find things that interests you and get you busy with some things
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well i wish i had places to go and ppl to meet. only hobby i have is poetry, thanks 4 the comment hun
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Baby know your never alone, I'm always with you
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sure i am, i mean ur not actually HERE now are u?
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Excellent poetry. A good mix of literally poetry, spiked with a few lines of hyperbole and similies. Comparing your house to a prison cell for example and "Boredom taken to a new extreme". It helps to paint the picture of how intensely you feel about your confinement. Great write, keep up the good work.
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thanks so much. i try to write so ppl can feel wht im goin thru. it means alot tht u liked it
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That's horrible that you have to go through that. But you are never alone. What about your friends at school? And what about your family? If you have no one to turn to...
Your friends at allpoetry are here for you! 
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yea...and i dont go to skool im homeskooled...and i have no friends tht live here....and my family hates me n worse so ya...and thanks!
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yea hunny this i sme too! i dont get to do anything either. i sit at home. the most fun i have is gettin of here and reading poems and making my own. it is my only way to escape the pain in the world. i used to cut. and i find it soo hard to go day by day and not cutting. but i have tried to cope with the shit in my life. my life is hell and ive been through too much. but there is other ways. cuttin is only a temporary fix. it wont help in the long run. and no im not preaching to you. im jsut telin you how i am. and maybe you;ll find that we are alot alike. but about the poem. it was a very nice write. full of emotion. and dont feel alone. there are many other people out there just like you.
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awwww! im sorry you have to go thru the same thing, and yea thts true. and i think tht we are alike in alot of ways. and thank you 4 the sweet comment hun its always nice to be reminded tht im not alone.
xoxo
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