and while i
watched in mock sadness
as the street lamps went
dim
you turned and you
almost
made everything
alright.
i make fun of you for your laugh
and we talk about what our babies
will look like.
i flatten up against my pillow
and hold in my stomach so that
i can almost feel you through
the phone line.
like a bee you
collapse onto the floor after
just one sting and i
poke and smile because
you're not really
there.
when i catch you off guard you
act like you knew it was coming and
'sure, i love you more'
with a sinister look on your face
and those adoring eyes
and oh god
here i have to stop.
2.
i am clutching the edge of the
sink and my mouth is shaking
with all of the things that i didn't mean to
swallow.
i make marks in the sand with my fingers and
look out the window at the water that
has gone away again.
it always does that.
you, you won't take no for an answer.
and i love you for it.
but please
leave me alone.
Author notes
i haven't written in so long
i am so sick
and i am so tired
and all of this is true
and fucked up
nothing if not nice
Comments
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"like a bee you
collapse onto the floor after
just one sting and i
poke and smile because
you're not really
there."
My favorite fo sho.
Actually, the whole thing was my favorite haha.
I love you darling.
♥
-Mary -
I know this place.
I know a lot of these emotions.
The stuff I've been posting relates
on this level. I don't think this is
the time for critiques, but the time
for reflection. Time hurts.
It was nice to read something new by
you again. A highlight for my day,
even from this sadness.
;
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"i am clutching the edge of the
sink and my mouth is shaking
with all of the things that i didn't mean to
swallow."
wow powerful! took me by surprise. great write. -
oh man
i want to give you a hug,
this is all too familiar
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