lights out

when the lights went out

i played the lullaby
you'd always used to sing
you were there for me
until the light closed
and the lullaby droned
i never thought this was a part of your routine
to shut me out into the open

so i turn the lights on
the shadows go back into their corners
and i call your name
and wait for the sooner moment
when the light became brighter

if this went on any longer,
i wouldn't be able to recognize it
as a treatment for a case of
disarmed education
i couldn't tell if it was punishment
or taking away the lingering comfort

why did you say
you won't feel a thing?
it wouldn't matter
after i take the last one
after i take the last drink

so i turn the lights on
the shadows go back into their corners
and i call your name
and wait for the sooner moment
when the light became brighter

and if i'm so lost
why couldn't you just tell me
i never learned anything
the cure wasn't a cure after all
and i never thought it'd work overall

you just wasted your goodnight lullaby
on the kid who attracted the shadows
when they never existed
in the first place
so goodnight
and goodbye