Daddy please don't do this.
Please let me sleep.
Please I don't want to do that tonight.
It is not because I don't love you daddy,
It is because that hurts and I am tired.
I don't want to love you like that daddy.
I just want to love you with a hug.
Please daddy.
I saw you kissing Beth daddy.
The same way you kiss mommy.
What is going on.
You can do that to me if you stay with mommy.
Please daddy.
No dad you can't leave.
I love you.
I want you to stay.
Are you leaving for Beth?
I know you love her more than mom.
I know you want someone that has a nice body.
So leave if you must but I love you dad.
I write "I want to die" in my own blood.
Mom,
I know it scares you,
What is this place going to be like?
Am I going to miss the basketball tournament?
Where is it?
How long will I be there?
Yes Bill,
My father did molest and rape me.
Call DHS.
Yes officer,
My father did molest and rape me.
No officer,
I guess that I will be the spineless person
I normally am and I will back down.
Be free dad...
Just please don't do it again to anyone.
Croix is my new dad.
He tricks me.
Makes me feel like I am needed.
I believe him.
Galyn help.
I am scared.
This just keeps getting worse.
I need you.
Call the cops.
He has sexually assaulted me.
DA decides not to persue because of age.
Screw them.
I have 83 pills.
I take them.
Passed out the ambulance shows up.
"What is your name!?!"
"How old are you!?!"
Questions pouring out.
Please just let me die.
Haven't you seen I have hurt enough?
Please don't put me out there for more.
I just want peace.
R.I.P.
Rest In Peace.
Please let me do it.
No such luck.
Jorge get the fuck away from me.
I said NO.
Get off.
Shit my mom's home.
Hide in the closet.
She leaves.
Leave right now Jorge.
"Get off me!"
"Help!"
"Call 911!"
Yes officer,
I said get the fuck off of me and he didn't listen.
Please.
Demons,
Please don't kill me.
Don't hurt me anymore.
Can't you see you've hurt me enough.
Author notes
This is about the abuse i have suffered first from my father, Than my father cheating, me knowing about it for 4 years, than him leaving, another guy my age tricking me into sex multiple times, my most severe suicide attmept, and than a guy that recently raped me and got caught.
A contest entry
- ~~~Demons~~~ by anguish.
395 points, ended July 25, 2008, 13 entries
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Comments
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im so sorry for what you've been through. u dont deserve it, u really dont. this is well written.
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oh... I'm sorry sweatheart..... *gentle hug*. you've been through so much, you don't deserve it (no one ever does).
an amazing poem, you can go places. really,
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i agree with everything dinkydiver say's, im giving you the same marks and saying thank you for sharing this very personal piece with us. welcome to the finals, we both hope this is just your past now, and that you are happier now even though i know it will always be with you for the rest of your life, wish you well. xxx
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I'm in the same contest as you right now but I honestly hope you win it. Good luck.
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wowee I fucking feel you in every sense here and I can relate to a lot........
I love the way you've written this!! awesome work
Title (how well the title relates to the poem): 8/10
Emotion (Shows emotion and gives a feeling to the poem): 10/10
Flow/Structure (It's easy to read and looks good): 10/10
Imagery (Paints a vivid picture in ones mind): 7/10
Reaction (How did the poem make me feel?) 10/10
Overall (overall opinion of the poem): 10/10
Totaling: 55/60
welcome to the finalists and goodluck
cojudge will be along soon to comment
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I am so sorry. I wish that you did not have to go through this. I apologize about what has happened, and I hope that you can get through this. I am glad that you can write your emotions out like this.
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oh my dear. this is so saddening, and so well written. I too have walked these roads you are struggling with, I have cried those tears and felt that pain. But take the strength from the pain and press on, this was so great!!!!!!
mylee
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sweetie the things you've gone through bring tears to my eyes...no one should go throught that kind of things...if you ever need to talk...I've been through similar things...I'm here for you and so are so many others...remember to keep hanging on hun! things will get better and please message me if you ever need anything!
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Wow, I mean.. just wow. I can't imagine what this could have been like even with your amazing poem there to tell me. Thanks for entering and good luck.
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WOW....holy crap. I am speechless. I think this may be the most painfully stunning write on all of AP. I am so sorry these "men" did this to you.
I don't know what else to say. My thoughts have escaped me.
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If there was no redemption for the pains found in this world, I'd not want to live another day myself; the pain is so outstanding, so lingering, so painful; you have painted a picture of some of its intensity with your well chosen/spoken words-well done-and please to remember in this world of pain, one can still find their redemptional outlet lol
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*sigh* A painful write for me to read.. Especially the part about Jorge.. Itslike a waking nightmare to read this Cass. Pained and yet beautiul.. Best of luck hun, be safe.
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