Fragments and Shards

I've fallen into a time
where I can no longer
bleed out my stress
to escape the turmoil in everyday life...

I am filled with words
but there is no one who can listen,
no advice to give me
in this hour of need...

I take it all in,
and it builds higher
and higher...
I expand further and further
just waiting to explode...

Where can I turn to-
where is the wall of strength?
What can I now do
to let this all go...

I've fallen into a time
where I walk unchartered ground,
I swim in the dark water
and my mind swirls-
I feel like I'm drowning...

What coping mechanism
can I now use?
What can I do
to get through?
I'm caught in the web
of truth...

All I have is this
but can it save me
from the inner demons that lurk
from the pain I swell with?

I am lost
in this scattered place
with fragments of confidence
and shards of fear...

I am scared
to put one foot forward
and to muddle through
because I just don't know how to...

I've fallen into a time
where I am no longer a child
where I know what is now expected of me
I just don't know the logistics of getting there...

The fragments of life
when put together make sense
but then there's the shards
I create when the sense shatters...

I have fallen into a time
where I have the answers
but I've lost the meaningful questions
I've lost who I used to be
who I ever was...
As if I ever knew...

It's fragments and shards
I'm caught in the web of truth...