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A losing Hand (Recovery, Petrarchan Sonnet)

My life was: Isolated desolation
surrounded by many people, so called friends.
For what I have done, I owe many amends,
my life a product of my own creation.
Turning it into an abomination,
embracing the darkness, whom I fast befriend.
Lie to myself, it's easier to pretend,
break from others, end all normal relations.
The time did come when it all became too much,
beaten, broken, I had to cry out for aid.
I needed the feeling of a loving touch,
crying, remorseful and very afraid.
Not any longer was Alcohol my crutch,
had a losing hand, it had been overplayed.


Author notes

Love you Tory.

If you or anyone you know has, or thinks they have, a problem with Alcohol or Drugs,
call the local AA / NA office near you and ask for a meeting schedule.
Alcoholics and Addicts end up in one (or all) of three places. Jails, Institutions, or the grave. The first was enough for me finally. Which do you prefer?

Hi, I'm Scott, and I'm an Alcoholic/Addict


"I can't shake this little feeling."

I. The Italian (or Petrarchan) Sonnet:
The basic meter of all sonnets in English is iambic pentameter (basic information on iambic pentameter), although there have been a few tetrameter and even hexameter sonnets, as well.

The Italian sonnet is divided into two sections by two different groups of rhyming sounds. The first 8 lines is called the octave and rhymes:

a b b a a b b a
The remaining 6 lines is called the sestet and can have either two or three rhyming sounds, arranged in a variety of ways:

c d c d c d
c d d c d c
c d e c d e
c d e c e d
c d c e d c

The exact pattern of sestet rhymes (unlike the octave pattern) is flexible. In strict practice, the one thing that is to be avoided in the sestet is ending with a couplet (dd or ee), as this was never permitted in Italy, and Petrarch himself (supposedly) never used a couplet ending; in actual practice, sestets are sometimes ended with couplets (Sidney's "Sonnet LXXI given below is an example of such a terminal couplet in an Italian sonnet).

The point here is that the poem is divided into two sections by the two differing rhyme groups. In accordance with the principle (which supposedly applies to all rhymed poetry but often doesn't), a change from one rhyme group to another signifies a change in subject matter. This change occurs at the beginning of L9 in the Italian sonnet and is called the volta, or "turn"; the turn is an essential element of the sonnet form, perhaps the essential element. It is at the volta that the second idea is introduced.

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  • Dark Otter
    July 26, 2008

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    Courageous write!

    In a few paragraphs,you revealed yourself completely. Your courage is to be recommended. As a former member of NA and a current member of AA I understand what you attempt to do. I hope you inspire at least one person to seek help. Also, I like this sonnet form and will try it. Thanks for sharing!

  • shelly webster
    July 24, 2008

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    VERY well put together, sir. to describe the life of an addict/alcoholic in fourteen lines is very impressive. and as all addicts/alcoholics would say, ive been there too. we've all been there. we love to blame others, when in all actuality, our destruction was made by our own hand. i felt a serious connection when you said, "Lie to myself/It's easier to pretend/Break from others/End all normal relations". It was so easy to do the wrong thing. To say I was okay. To look at everyone around me trying to help me, only to push them away because they "didn't understand". It just seems so short ago that I was in that lost void, drifting aimlessly.. waiting for that rock bottom.

    And I loved the sonnet style. That was a really well-thought out poem. Thank you for entering.