Lost Love

I stop and watch
Wondering what to do
What have I done wrong
What did I do
Must leave
Don’t want to
Why must it be so hard
Why can’t we live like we want to
I have to stay strong
Don’t want to change
Please don’t make me
If you try to change me
Ill take u down with me
In an endless spiral
Can’t hold my head up anymore
Don’t know how to react
Don’t know what to do in this world
Everything starts spinning
I start to lose control
Why does everything have to stay out of my reach
I feel like i'm about to fall
And no ones there to catch me
I’m falling down a dark hole
And when I hit the bottom
I know it won’t be the landing that I want
So I try not to fall
I reach out for the sides
But it slips through my fingers
I just can’t survive
My nails start to bleed
They can’t hold on anymore
Why don’t I just give up
I close my eyes and jump
The air screams past my hair
It winds into my soul
I feel it in my heart
It knows my very core
Its touch is not as soft
Its voice is not as sweet
Its scent is not what I desire
I want to scream out your name
But the wind doesn’t want me to be heard
It silences my screams
Its touch becomes iron
Its voice a manic laugh
Its scent is that of sorrow
I’m caught in its cage
I can’t get away
From falling
Infinitely