brain dribbles

don't tell me that you love me,
when you have never sceen me threw.
don't say i'm in your dreams,
when i'm the girl you never knew.

i will not take the meds you want,
bi-polar, manic depressive, masocistic.
how many words that you flaunt!
beleive me i'm sans-fantastic.

anti anxioty, anti psycotics
red blue white and green
so many, gives me psycosis,
so many pills i've sceen.

so many meds, who am i?
for every medical label
re-fill prescriptions till i die,
as a lone horse in a fallen stable?



don't know who i will be,
wake, take a hit, get threw the day.
so many people trying, molding me,
stop the pills and throw my life away?

label me everything you can un-lock,
what should i take and how,
but tell me my smart doc.,



why i stopped taking them and i'm happy now?