Only I Can See...

Only I can see the purple,
The bruises you leave me with.
Only I can see the sorrow,
The pain you make me feel.
And only I can see why you do it,
Why you take it out on me.
Some people just don't understand.

You're angry,
Wild eyes.
And I know better than to cry.
As your blows land,
My vision blackens,
I see only in red.
Instinct kicks in.
I make the mistake:
I fight back.

Only I can see your sorrow,
Why you do what you do.
Only I can see that,
At least this way,
You aren't taking it out on you.
And only I can see how sad you are,
When I'm finally awake.
Your apologies keep me around.

You act normally;
I know something is wrong.
I can hear it in your voice.
And see it in the way you look at me.
I don't anticipate the punch.
I couldn't see the kick.
I was blind to the knife
As it cut across my skin.

Only I can see the scars
That decorate my skin.
Only I can see the blood...

Only I can see
Why you are the way you are.
I did something...

My eyes open;
I am on the floor.
My heart skips a beat
As you start pounding me once more.
The pain is unbearable;
My head is slammed back.
Spots fight to dominate my eyes.
I can't remember where I'm at.

I feel the IV in my arm,
The oxygen tube in my nose.
Before I open my eyes,
I know.
I see a white room,
Two people standing there.
My thoughts are racing,
Broken,
Fading.

Only I can see why you did it,
Why you injured me so.
Only I can see,
That's why I had to go.
Your efforts didn't work.
I'm still alive.
I'm coming back to you.

I knock on your door;
It's open,
So I enter.
I go to where it all started,
And see you lying there,
Your eyes closed,
Your wrists bleeding,
A note beside your hand.

"Only you knew why I hurt,
Only you saw my pain.
I took it all out on you.
You shouldn't love me.
In time,
It will all heal,
The bruises,
The scars.
My death will protect you.
Alwyas know I love you.
I never meant for this..."

I fall to my knees,
Screaming your name.
My heart is no more,
It's lost in the rain.
The razor is beside you;
My hand closes around it.

Something so soft,
So gentle was said.
I was sure you were dead.
But your chest rose and fell,
You heart was still beating...

"I love you;
I'm sorry,"
It was weak,
But it was there.
I felt tears rolling down my face.
Felt our lips meet one last time.

Only I saw you die.
Only I can know why.
I took your note,
Treasure it still.

Only I could see how much you loved me,
So much you would die to protect me.
Only I can see...

The razor is in my hand,
Only I can see its love.
I can see your face before me,
As I slice what once was.