9/22

Laying awake at 3am, another wasted night.  I think to myself what is wrong?
I sigh and blow the thoughts away, maybe it's the heat keeping me awake, I turn over.
I close my eyes, only to drift off for no more than a few minutes, haunted..


Am I all right?  It's been a week straight now and I haven't fallen asleep easily...
Countless hours I lay awake thinking, what is wrong with me?  I find no answer..
I turn over again and shrug it away, sleep coming to me, I drift off to dream...or not


I wake with a fright, eyes shoot open, sweat dripping down, legs kicking, I scream..
Another nightmare from my past reflections, all the pain and guilt coming back to me
One more reason to cry silently as no one hears me, I'm sorry I can't forgive myself


I can do nothing more than feel even worse as that dreaded day comes closer and closer
I know you told me not to worry, we're together now, but I'm not all right, no I'm not
My birthday is coming, along with all the pain from ago....I'm not all right, please will you help me?