Up to You

Just let me slip away the way I struggled from your arms
so determined to slip right through your fingers
no matter how hard you tried to grip me, always holding on
I let you go, I let you down, and now there's nothing left
I'd tear myself in pieces so you could keep only the best of me
and yet you cling to these memories:
the way I met your eyes,
the way I screamed and yelled at you,

the way I made you cry,
All these things I'd end myself for, you keep me alive
so maybe we'd be better off if we just fell apart

I wish you would just hate me for the things I've done to you
for I know, despite your caring heart, I'll never find forgiveness
I'm forced to linger, awkwardly, unsure of what to say
and every time I have the chance I try to run away
But then the letters get to me, the words blotted with tears
and I know there's no way that I can leave

So you're the one that has to go, it's finally up to you
and maybe one day I'll find the strength to finally hate you too
it's your choice; get it over with