Your probably staring at my body
With horror filled eyes
Saying that your sad I'm gone
But I can see through your lies
So angry at you for not being there,
Not able to express it ,
Everything you say to me,
Sends me deeper into my exile.
I just want to go to sleep;
And never wake up again,
You are my burden,
A weight on my shoulders,
Stress on my mind,
My family,
You said you’d be there
You lied
When you said that,
You’d never let me down,
You’d never hurt me,
And that you’d help me
Deal with anything,
But you lied,
If you had told me
From the beginning,
That you would never accept me,
Then maybe I wouldn’t be so disappointed.
I really want to love you,
I want to be your daughter,
I want to trust you again,
I want you to love me back,
But it all seems,
So impossible,
I just wish…,
I wish you could've…,
Loved me again,
But it's to late now.
Because I just want to go to sleep;
And never wake up again,
And if there was a way to save me;
I would avoid it at all costs.
I don’t want the help you try to give me.
Stupid people think they understand.
I can’t believe you still believe that lie.
There’s no one in this world;
That will ever see why.
No one will know the reason;
Why I hurt myself the way I do.
They will never get it.
I don’t want to talk anymore.
I just want it all to go away.
I can’t even think straight right now.
I just want to go to sleep;
And never wake up again,
I would say I love you,
But I don't want to speak lies too,
So Goodbye
I finally have no more tears to cry
I just want to go to sleep;
And never wake up again,
Author notes
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A contest entry
- Suicide Note by newnoakua.
700 points, ended August 6, 2008, 39 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Didn't turn out the way i wanted but O'well
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This actually gave me some chills as I was reading it. It's so sad to think that there are so many people out there that do this...
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wow... this is really good! Kinda erie... yet still really good.
Good job and best of luck in the contest!!
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good job
Whether or not this is really about you or just a contest poem I won't ask. I find this a little more deeper and intense than some of your other poems I've read. You certainly had the feeling when you wrote this, I can tell. Anyhow thanks for sharing and I wish you good luck. Please know you're not alone in the world and there are people who love you. Be the best you can be.
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This poem is really half and half I have thought of suicide before and still do now and it is for a contest.
P.S The reason theres no titleor background is my computer frooze up like it does everytime I add a poem
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It bothers me to read “I’m killing myself” stuff because I never know if I’m hearing someone’s last words or if they are writing it so they won’t do it or if they just have a good imagination. I write about things I have never experienced and I’m telling myself that’s what you are doing here. I’ll say one thing for you, you can make me feel it.
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