I was lost
felt so alone
my heart was broken
my soul was weak
I couldn't hear
The cries of my heart
through the screams
of anger and hate
I shouted at God
for abandoning me
leaving me to walk alone
so I drowned my pain
I smothered the joy
and twisted the love
every Friday night
I drank my way
to oblivion
and now I run
from the thirst
I try to hide
the craving
for this drink
but I feel it
pulling me
drawing me
calling me
to feel no more
to wash my cares away
and send me to an early grave
those I've told
barely understand
how hard it is
to resist
when they push me
and prod me
they don't understand
I'm on the edge
And the abyss is so tempting
Author notes
This is kinda hard for me to post, I'm being brutally honest about myself...I do like this one, its actually how I wanted it. There is another poem I'm gonna write because I don't think anyone really gets how afraid I am of that part of me.
Do you understand?
Comments
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I'm guessing this is about your little problem you had a while ago. I'm glad you found the strength to face it and solve the problem, going to drink is never the answer and it says a lot about you if you have the strength to say you are going to stop there before it gets out of control, you're strong =)...specially since you can resist when things get bad.
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I like the anger and suffering side of this it helps tell the story. Good work
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I really like this. You can tell that you let yourself into your own emotions in this. That makes it better. That makes anything worth reading. So best one yet.
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