I Fall

I fall to my knees
I have nothing more to give
I cry out in desperation
My life is spinning out of control
I'm pulled in every direction
And its dragging me
Away from where I want to be
Every time I think I find
A place for me to be
A love I can't deny
Something always happens
And its ripped away from me
Or I drop every thing to help
My family and friends
But I'd do it again
Whether they ask me or not
I have to help
When there hurting and in pain
My heart is broken
And my spirit is crushed
So I fall to my knees
And cry out in desperation
For someone to guide me

Because I tried to do it on my own
And I fell to my addiction
My addiction took hold of me
Took root in me
Corrupting every part of me
Hallowing me out
Till I was a shell
With nothing left inside that was human
Only my addiction playing my part
But it kept my anger and hate
Locked in their cage
So I gave myself to its hold
At the price of love and joy
I gave up everything I had
And ran from the only home I knew
Till I found myself
And stood face to face with who I was
Now I'm fighting
To keep control of my life
To keep my addiction
From taking hold of me again
To keep my anger from becoming
A blazing inferno destroying everything around me