I was eight years old

i will never forget the illusions
waking me at night
causing horrific delusions
of the unimaginable

i was eight years old
these were my sleepless nights
when anxiety took a firm hold
of my horrible past

it started with the dentist drill
under the impression
it could somehow kill
and that night i went to sleep

i screamed and dropped to the ground
screaming "too loud too loud!!"
the sound seemed to be all around
i couldn't get away

the night before i went on a train
a terrible illusion
of storms and lots of rain
then shattered pieces of a train wreck

but then one night
i awoke
but something wasnt right
i walked down the hall

i was in a street
lots of people
scampering feet
im shoved out the way

people are all around
i cant get away
what im looking for cant be found
i start to scream

i cant take a breath
i cant take a glimpse
but when i do DEATH
i smell it and see it all around

each and every night
i would awake
in fear and in fright
of my horrific delusions

                      xxx I was only eight xxx