A terrible decision...

In every life time there is a point,
a point which cannot be stopped nor deflected,
a point where each individual must choose,
choose what they hoped never to change.

For me that time has come,
it has come to me in a way I hoped never to have,
now I truely must choose or else ill be lost,
should I stay and wait longer or should I go out there?

I cannot choose alone and so I ask,
You to who this choice comes for I need your guidance,
Elizabeth, its your choice because its your answer I have awaited,
but I have waited for a long time, and I still wait...

Answer me this and I will comply with your wishes,
yet where this is my choice on which to decide,
I come to you to ask and see a reply,
but heres the reason why...

I love you more then life itself,
I have shown you this and I want you in my life,
but with all this waiting comes a cost,
my mind is slowly slipping away...

I have no one to confide in,
no one to hold and tell I love you to,
you know I still love you more then anything,
but if you think I can wait forever for you...I'm sorry...

You know without someone by my side its hard for me to be happy,
and with you I would gladly give up my happiness for yours,
but when everytime I try to talk to you, you just push me away,
it hurts, and my happiness dwindles away more and more...

So here is what I am proposing,
I need an answer, so yes or no,
will you have that answer when the results come,
the results of a test which I know the outcome of.

I will wait till then but past that I can't promise my status,
I cannot garantee I will still be there if you decide to say yes,
I don't do this because of loosing love for you,
I do this because I am loosing my mind, and my heart is being torn from me.

Everytime I see you I remember what we had,
I wonder where it went wrong,
I wonder if it will come back,
but the pain is too much...

Without you, I would have changed schools,
the day I asked you out i picked up the paperwork to transfer,
and were you to either say no, or break up with me,
I would have accepted my defeat and been gone.

You got me back on my feet in school,
you helped me through the hardest point in my life,
you gave me the love that I never had before,
and you made me a better person.

I changed for the better with you,
I was changing for the worse before you came,
I am changing yet again, and your the edge of what will happen again,
but this time it is the way it was before...

This time its either going to be my life and yours together,
or its going to be friends and not taking that one chance for it to come back,
I have made my decision, but it depends on you,
if you decide you will try again I will wait a little longer, if not then I'm gone.

Either way, you will always be in my heart.
Either way, you will always be my friend.
Either way, I will always be there for you.
But remember, I cannot wait much longer...  my heart is too torn, and my mind too far gone for me to be able to recover if I do not change it soon.