Not So Long Ago

I left my heart at your door
A gift you once gave
So now I give it back
before heading to the grave

I think about your loving face
Before reaching for this gun
I know you don't want this
But the devil has already won

Not so long ago
you had said to me
I love you, sweet
do not ever leave
But now tragedy has come forth a war
You leave me no choice
But to set the score

In this darkened death of a room
I see only a battle
There's only so much time
For my heart to shatter

And as I pull this trigger
Thinking only of you
I know you'll be disappointed
And tears come shining through

Must I leave in this way?
Only a coward's way out?
But I know the only truth
Is death set in doubt

So as I leave this world in pain
A shadow takes my soul
And at the funeral
Crushes it until its no more

But not so long ago
You had said to me
I love you, my darling
If you leave this world
What will happen to me
I need you, sweet
Before this world comes to an end
Please see me, love
Do not try and bend

Now its too late as I sit in this shadowy grave
And I think I feel you putting flowers
Right on top of my name