forgotten child

an adolescent, so innocent and pure
    yet
abruptly forced to mature

losing her childhood, the most irreplaceable
loneliness is bound to follow her
where ever she travels
   
memories of neglect and abuse
left her unlovable
with the most predominantly-internal scars

this discouragement at home
was
more common than a hug

a child so young
    just
forgotten, lost and left behind

knowledge of the obscene
witnessed violation
  keeping secrets as mother requested
            potential victim, let down, spirit molested

inner child abandoned, left to dissipate into thin air
  ruined
desiring protection and security

a future of aggression and resentment
      damaged
and needy
 


she believes that she is ruined, and mentally tainted
  often
wishing she wasn't even born
what is her purpose?
     
broken like shattered glass
selfishly running away from her reality

they say to "never look back"
that's all she thinks about
toxicity poisons her spirit
dysfunction and poverty is where she came from

  she all too soon discovered that
    childhood trauma's such as hers
can take your will and determination to strive

  discouraged in
those we were expected to trust
realizing that those in authority
can be the most deceitful

with the full intentions
of
devastating the best of us
demanding we live a lie

stripping an angel
of her dignity...
of her destiny...
of her wings


  memories of abandonment left a stain in her mind
  lingering like a foul odor
tormenting her , even until this very day

   
   
today she can feel like just another forgotten human being
who was
once worthy of love
she longs to be adored and cherished
as she is still
someones child