silent heart break

of all the people around,
there is only one who can break my heart without a sound.
i see her everyday,
the one person who never goes away.
she controls all of my thoughts and dreams,
is the only one who hears my screams.
the one who will always be there to wipe away my tears,
and to stick around through all my fears.

she has watched me go through hell,
allowed me to be a prisoner of my own jail.
has sat back and watched it all,
when i became weak, she let me fall.
as i cut, she let the blood drip from my arm,
she was the cause of my self harm.
yet she also helped me stop it,
leaving the scars, to remind me the pain wasn't a skit.

she is the only one to fully understand me,
this girl see's as i see.
she shares all my beliefs,
and longs for the same reliefs.
the source of my pain,
the hand that holds mine through all the strain.
knowing her, is like having a disease,
one where all you do is try to please.

every morning when i look in the mirror,
i realize my biggest fear.
the one thing i dread,
the cause of every tear shed.
how could this be?
the thing i fear most, is me.
of all the people around,
i am the only one who can break my heart, without a sound.