Don't you understand, how its hard to talk,
when there was never anyone to listen.
My past still haunts me,
he finds me in my dreams.
It's just so hard to speak,
when no one wanted to listen.
I keep my secrets,
all locked away.
To afraid of being hurt,
and pushing my friends away.
I've never let anyone get close,
not realizing how that hurt them.
I trusted to easily once before,
he was of my own kin.
Look where I am now...
Alone once again,
wallowing in self-pity.
Left to surf my dreams,
not wanting to be in reality.
Thinking of harm I can inflict,
and writing it down on paper.
But I know it will never happen,
because I don't want those scars.
The scars that will be visible,
unlike the ones inside.
Don't you understand, whats happened to me,
I've been left alone to long.
A contest entry
- Finaly Someone You Can Talk To About Anything by storiesuntold.
525 points, ended July 29, 2008, 14 entries
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Comments
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pmg i hope that never really happened
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*cries* Aww... such an amazing poem... know how it is :/... I wish I could write like you!!! GREAT poem!!!
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Hey I hear what you are saying here
If you shut down your feelings then others do as well they try then find you arent listening but this is beacuse how you were treated for so long does your friends know this or are you treating your friends as you were treated this cant be right .For if you hate it and feel bad then how does your friends feel .To stop the circle you have to talk to others it doesnt have to be about your life or your secrets just talking and enjoy each others company. We often think our friends just because they ask makes you feel they need to know .Not at all for your life is your own to direct and as is theirs. Get past this feeling you have and reach out tell them you are sorry and you had problems you couldnt figure out but you didnt mean to push them away . They will come back if they wee true friends and from there get more going on in your life.For the silece after a while becomes a scream that blocks out all thought . Tell me as I was reaing your piece here and by the way a very well written opoem I must say .While you were writing this did you
know tht someone out here was going to understand and talk to you as a sister would and know their is love out here .Not physical love real love a friend and a person that you can be free with and relax how long have you waited to find such a friend .Sure sometimes I might fuss at you and you fuss at me and lets get to talking and find that place where you know you are very wanted and shall see you will be loved by many . Please Im here everyday and I will get with you now and then myself just to say hi and to chat but please feel free to be yourself and relax its OK
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this is a great write. really sad.
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