Belt

Bend my arms back
But, please don’t break them
I think it may really hurt
And I may cry the whole night through
Remembering being twisted back & forth as you choke me until I pass out
Waking up with your dick in mouth
Telling to me to swallow, to swallow all of your wasted raging creamy milk
If I don’t I will die, I will die so you say to me at the age of 2 or 3
You were suppose to watch me, not to rape me

Now when I hear the word
Belt
All my haunted past comes back
Choking me to death
Choking me to death just, to please you

I think you made I a drunk
Because of being raped so often
That it became a habit to be raped daily
For 2 years until I was four
But, it didn’t stop there
I got raped by 4 other people from the age of four & ongoing until I was seven
When you finally stopped fucking raping me
There I found out, there I found out all babysitters like to fuck kids
How do I know because it always happen to me

What am I to think of this world
When this world has treated me like a piece of ass
Never showing me love but, to react in lust towards me
Because of not knowing right from wrong or if I am allowed to say to not touch me
I am feeling broken for opening up about my childhood
To you people who are willing to read what I have to say
The memories that haunt me from the morning until the late night
Even messing with my head when I, when I am sleeping

Don’t fucking touch me
Otherwise I am telling
Don’t fucking touch me
Otherwise watch I kill myself
Why don't you try to explain why I killed myself
Won’t you try, won’t you try
Telling everyone in this world that you raped me

{Sir. Love Coffin}