Drown myself in pills

I drown myself in pills,
Trying to haze out everything
I end up killing my own will…
It only heightens the emotion inside,
All the sorrow and rage I am trying to hide…
All I do is climb,
Thinking I am doing fine
But than it all falls down
Leaving me broken and bound…
None of the angels will cry,
When I finally lay down to die….
Every fear is running through me
Lately I can hardly breathe
It’s all vague and I can’t see,
Anything that is in front of me…
Is all the pain inside, ever going to fade?
No matter what, it just won’t go away
The past gets dusty and old
And the present hurt overflows
Things I pushed deep, down within,
Come back up to hurt me again
Sometimes I wonder how I push through,
Over the vague old and the aching new………
I am breaking apart piece by piece
Soon I will no longer exist…
All I am is a mist,
  Lightly covering you
In till my bloody distraction
……………….comes true………..