If only things were different,
and I was normal.
That the scars in my memory
could leave me and not return.
But every time I sleep, I see his face.
He's caressing my body and doing things to me
that make me quiver and shake.
I became entertainment to a sicko who liked
my childlike frame.
or did what he's done to me.
Would I be the same girl
or would I change?
Why can't I sleep in peace
at least one night?
I can't help but cry for better life,
beyond what his hands have done.
Every scar and tremor, all the tears
and missed years of a true childhood.
The sound of your name or your kind makes me what to scream.
I would have shouted at the top of my lungs,
but you held my mouth closed, as you molested me.











~mandie~









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