Regrets lay inside me,
Everything is still the same,
I knew I could have changed it,
Shoulda, woulda, coulda,
I let myself become dependent,
I pretended not to see,
Everytime he strayed from me,
Pretended I didn’t care,
I convinced myself,
That his kisses said forever,
I was so… wrong,
Convinced myself everything was okay,
That somehow we’d find a way,
I never did find my way,
It’s even harder to find it now,
Especially since he’s gone.
I need to feel him kissing me,
Still it’s hard,
I can’t find a way,
To tell him how I feel,
And he’s gone now,
I need to move on,
Can’t forget his promises,
Thought he’d be here,
I’m alone I shouldn’t have hoped,
Where’s it ever got me before?
Everything is still the same,
I knew I could have changed it,
Shoulda, woulda, coulda,
I let myself become dependent,
I pretended not to see,
Everytime he strayed from me,
Pretended I didn’t care,
I convinced myself,
That his kisses said forever,
I was so… wrong,
Convinced myself everything was okay,
That somehow we’d find a way,
I never did find my way,
It’s even harder to find it now,
Especially since he’s gone.
I need to feel him kissing me,
Still it’s hard,
I can’t find a way,
To tell him how I feel,
And he’s gone now,
I need to move on,
Can’t forget his promises,
Thought he’d be here,
I’m alone I shouldn’t have hoped,
Where’s it ever got me before?
Author notes
hey =) i went with the first option, and i couldnt really choose between two quotes so i used them both hope its k.
"Because I hoped you'd be there when everybody else left. I hoped you'd help me up when I fell. I hoped and that was my first mistake."
"This is to all the times I wish I had said no. This is to all the times I knew what he was doing. And I ignored it."
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ps heres some well deserved applause I forgot on my last comment and it wouldn't let me add it in edit.


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oh hun... have i ever been here!! I was hooked at the "let myself become dependent" line. I did that and so know what it feels like to be angry and lost and sad all because he's gone.
great write fantastic portrayal of the feelings you are feeling.
Good Luck in the contest!
Helen
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Woww, this was amazing!! You really used both quotes fully and I love how you mixed them together. [And yes, it's perfectly fine that you used two, haha
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I liked the last stanza the best. It portrays angst and so much pain, but then it switches to determination of getting your life back together again.
Great job -- good luck in the contest! Thanks for entering
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