Betrayed

Lingering on dancing words
They flit across the page
As the candle wick has met the match
And the clouds, grey, begin to rain…

Distain, refrain, these dissonant chords of past
My inner-strength this midnight surfacing of pride
The lingering wonders of a long lost star
Within your arms, I cry, I hide

Traces, pieces…only fragments of what’s left
Tie a tourniquet around my soul…
Cut off the pulse of my regret

Is my happiness that much of a threat?
Those whispers of suicide are a contradiction
You aren’t blinding me anymore
This isn’t ‘Please give me a reason’

This is the selfish consequence of your ever scarring treason
Because quite frankly, I can’t take this anymore
If I’m the backstabbing bitch take a look within, I implore
Trust me, you won’t find me there anymore.

I’m a heartbreaker, a rapist, and what else?
Oh…that’s right, you hate yourself.
Well listen up, because I’m only saying this once,

You lost my friendship, you lost my trust.
You lost it when you told me how to live my life
You lost it when you took the love, and ripped it from my life
You lost it when you knew it was wrong
When they tried to accept you, and you fucking run?

Socially inept, fucked family values, I’m sorry honey
That isn’t my fault, and finally…Look at me.
I’m not like the others that you can kick around…
I stand straight up when you knock me down

And what else? Pity you, okay, how about we double this shit, times two?
No, wait, hold on, fuck you.
Yeah, I win.
You lose.