Your baiting breath against my skin;the cheap cider, tipped back into my throat--
so much easier to forget when the world fades
and words become incoherent and monotoned,
those vodka & coke days kept me dreaming.
"Baby, please believe me - I'd never hurt you,I never meant to do what I did, I made a mistake.
Please don't look at me that way," but it's too late;
the trickles of tears down my face, I try to hide
but you're already there, kissing them away -
[with your hands in inappropriate places].
"Don't tell anyone... Don't leave me."But I couldn't even if I tried, I was trapped,
it's thanks to your mistakes, I'm free now.
How it frightened me when you'd scream -
do you remember the day I found you out,
you punched a hole in your bedroom wall
and you told me it was lucky it wasn't me.
Just bit my lip and took your forced kissesand manufactured lies, just for your convenience.
The words 'no' could never be formed on my tongue,almost a blasphemy of our intimacy and trust -
baby I said that you used to frighten me in school,
but really, I was most scared of you alone in your room,
I have too many memories of you that wont bleedfrom the pores in my skin, that I want to release you.
No amount of showering sterilizes my sinned skin
and no amount of comforting calms me, I cannot fathom
why I never had the guts to leave you, get you arrested -
but I know that if I did, I probably wouldn't be here.
I wish I could hate you, but all I feel is pity.
Author notes
"This is to all the times I wish I had said no. This is to all the times I knew what he was doing. And I ignored it."
If you don't know me and want to know what this is referencing to, just ask.
I'm glad I'm getting this all out, it was really needed.
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- Quotes and Big Points!! by she still smiles x.
2000 points, ended August 7, 2008, 28 entries
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wow, is this one kind of close to you, i can see by how it was written, or i am just guessing, keep it flowing and good luck in the contest
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Ohkay, so wow. I am absolutely in love with this poem. The power and strength completely pours from every line, and your words were so heartfelt, and I could relate so well, it's scary. I know the feeling. Feeling pity for someone, because they'll always be the same pathetic person. Sorry, I'm rambling, ahah. My favvve lines had to be:
"The words 'no' could never be formed on my tongue,
almost a blasphemy of our intimacy and trust -
baby I said that you used to frighten me in school,
but really, I was most scared of you alone in your room"
Incredible lines. You wrote those so well; every word was so vivid. Thank you so much for entering our contest; I wish you thee best of luckkk!♥
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Wow. Quite a wonderful piece of poetry. Well done. Now I wish not to know of the events these depict. If I may just say sorry I will. For whatever may have happened for you to get this out an event sadly must of been brought upon you. I'm sorry. Excellent write though.
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this is a powerful write, the emotion an life that fows within it is gripped. there is so much depth and meaning in it. never forget im here for you
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Wowww. This is honestly one of the most powerful poems I've ever read. I LOVE how you ended this. I used to think that feeling sympathy for someone was bad, but then I realized feeling pity for someone is worse and it just shows how pathetic they truly are. Maybe those words are harsh, but I can relate to this poem, and it really had an effect on me.
I also loved the title you chose for this piece :]
Beautiful job, this was amazing. Best of luck!<3
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