Dear Mother(My Shirts Bled Through)

Dearest Mother, Are you there?
Dear child, I'll try to be better
I hope you both know
That I've tried my best to let go
But you can't throw away
Can you hear me screaming throw sunrays
Cover up with your safety blanket
Runaway like nothing happened I know you can fake it

Speak slow
Turn your head you dont know
What the hell your doing
Broken stutter stepping
Drunken game face
I can't find a better place
For you I try my best
But I'm not as good as the rest

So mommy
Tell me a bedtime story
*But you weren't there*
My child
I'll try my best to be mild
*But I'm bleeding through*
*My shirt*

Smile be proud
Mother look at me now
Eighteen and a daddy
This is what you painted exactly
Please stop screaming at me
But your not even talking its echoing
Kill me mother heres the knife
Oh yeah don't for get to kiss me goodnight

So mommy
Tell me a bedtime story
*But you weren't there*
My child
I'll try my best to be mild
*But I'm bleeding through*
*My shirt*

Dear child
I'm sorry if I'm a failure
I love you dearly but I'm not better
This sickness plagues me
Its like some kind disease of slowly dying
Tortured but I want to be
The best I am for you

So mommy
Tell me a bedtime story
*But you weren't there*
My child
I'll try my best to be mild
*But I'm bleeding through*
*My shirt*

"Turn away mom you know things could get better"