And I don't know how to fix it
something's missing
And I don't know what it is"
-John Mayer
I really feel like something is missing in my life and I'm not quite sure what it is. I am a 25 year old college student. I have been in school for the last 7 years but it feels like forever. I am STILL working on my bachelors degree. I have had some bumps along the road in my education but I haven't given up...yet. I am feeling very, very frustrated with how long it has taken me to get through it. I am feeling absolutely no motivation to work hard on it anymore because I have been at it so long. All of the people I have gone to school with and been in classes with have graduated and here I am...still trying to finish. I am happy in my relationship. I have an amazing boyfriend who really means the world to me. He makes the gray skies seem a little lighter. My job is okay...not something I can see myself doing for the rest of my life but it works for the time being. I mean...they pay for half of my schooling
I am not really a religious person. Not sure how I feel about that but I figure it'll come to me when I am ready for it. I just feel like I am struggling. I feel like something is missing in my life but I can't put my finger on what it is. I am sitting here crying while I am writing this because I am so sad...I don't want to hurt anymore. I feel like something big is missing...I feel an empty spot. How can I figure out what it is? I don't want to cry about this anymore but I don't know what is missing so I guess I really can't fill the void. I thought that writing more poetry would help but I can't find any good inspiration. I didn't have a great childhood so I can't go back to those 'happy' memories. Each time I sit down to write...my page just stays blank. I type words and then immediately delete them because they sound stupid. I really don't know what the point of writing this is other than to get it out so maybe things will get better...I guess I can stop now. I've filled up enough space. Thanks for reading this...I'm sorry for wasting your time
Adding your comment: